Ladies & gents, theys & thems, happy pride month! I took the MBTI personality test (this has nothing to do with being gay... I think?) because I had nothing interesting for today's intro. The results are in, and I'm an INFJ-A; for the uninitiated, it means that my smoke's too tough, my swag too different, and my bitch too bad.
A few days ago, when I was online (as I often am) on Discord, I saw someone with the username "sell nitro | pc games in cheap" on the sidebar. My brain immediately thought, "Ouuu content!" So, I did what any individual with a semi-decent brain rot would do: I sent him a text telling him I was interested.
He responded almost instantly (that's the first sign of a scam). He asked me a few questions and told me all the acceptable modes of payment. It was mostly in bot currencies (which is not "legal" in bot law). He was also kind enough to offer me nitro for ₹300. For context, if you buy nitro it costs you ₹835; now, I'm no fool to turn down the 65% discount.
But I'm an Indian, which means that when you're offered something for a discounted price, you always bargain further. I was also trying to get him to do the trade in bot currencies because it's technically not allowed, hence more fun and fresh, but he kept reassuring me that he would do the transaction from his alt. account (which is also frowned upon) to ensure the safety of both our accounts.
Eventually, I got bored and said, "Hey, this is a great offer, but I don't got it like that right now. I'll get more money and be back soon." But sweet summer child wasn't ready to let me go; he said, "Okay, I'll get it to you for cheaper," sent a server link, and stopped responding to my messages.
It very much felt like I was in a mafia movie. Eventually, I got bored waiting, so I started poking around this new underground gulag server; I find another guy with a similar name, "Selling Nitro and mcfa || dm me" so I dm him; I mean, the grammar in the username has improved, so surely, this guy won't scam me, I thought.
We go through the same conversation, more or less, but then he tells me the price, and my jaw drops to the floor. He said he'd give me nitro for ₹80. THAT'S A 90% DISCOUNT! ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME????? 90%????? IN THE YEAR OF OUR LORD 2024???? I immediately got excited and started talking; he kept reassuring me that he wouldn't scam me; I said bet, I trust you with my life. He then sent me the QR to pay, and I obliged. Brother Bear didn't even have me wire it to his Bitcoin wallet, while making the payment, I saw his full legal government name. Fun!
Now that all monetary transactions were done, I patiently waited, and came the hammer. Guy said, "Okay, now share your email and password." I let out an audible gasp at the audacity of this bitch. I said, woah woah woah, I ain't sharing nothing, this whole ordeal was supposed to be my fun time pass lil fun ass fun goofy fun time, I ain't sharing no password (I 100% would have if it wasn't my main account).
I was utterly disappointed. I politely asked for a refund, and obviously, the guy refused. I'm still super friendly, but he kept trying to convince me he didn't have any mal-intent regarding my account. He just wants to log in, make the payment, and give back my account; I was adamant about not sharing the account (as should anyone).
He goes on to suggest a genius idea and tells me to get it on my alt. account. I was like, my money is gone, so I might as well make the guy work. Still, I didn't want to risk ANY of my account(s) getting compromised, so I booted up a temp email, made an account, and sent him the credentials.
Surely enough, he logs in and subscribes to Nitro; all's done, except the little guy forgot that when he logged in to Discord, I could track his IP address. So, if we pause for a second, I now have his full legal name and the exact coordinates of where he lives. I swear, the whole time, I kept waiting for him to behave rudely to pull out his biodata, but he was pretty chill, except for the part where he refused to return the money; that was kind of a dick move. But hey, I got Nitro and boosted a server, and now the account is as good as dead.
I thought that concluded the story, but…
It's good. So good, it scratched that part of my mind. The part that doesn't allow good to exist without a condition." — Elliot in Mr. Robot
So I did some digging, and shortly enough, I found out that Epic Games is doing a free Discord nitro giveaway. THIS BITCH TOOK MY MONEY TO SIGN UP FOR A FREE TRIAL THAT I COULD'VE GOTTEN MYSELF! I was seething with justified rage. Y'know, the worst part is, even if I had given him all my real credentials, he couldn't have given me nitro on my main because I had recently subbed to nitro. Discord T&C doesn't let you subscribe to a Nitro trial if you have had Nitro in the past year. So, all that would've been for nothing, and I'm sure that bitch wouldn't have paid me back.
I DM'd him again, asking him questions about the T&C, because I claimed my free link. He got excited and HAD THE AUDACITY TO ASK ME FOR THE LINK, WHICH I CLAIMED!!!!!! This guy is unbelievable! I asked him to refund my 80 in exchange for the link. He refused it, and so did I, but he put up a fight (by fight, I mean he pleaded a lot and offered me ₹5 for the link).
Sigh.
That was it, that was the story of how I got scammed. The moral of the story is if shit seems too good to be true, you're probably right.
Okay, hard pivot. Mental reset. Woooosh. Poof poof poof. I want you to forget everything you've read so far; time to be for fucking real right now.
Friday night, I had an epiphany.
I don't know what happened, but I was thinking about school. I remember being so hyperactive all the time; I loved being in that state perpetually. I LOVE being busy; it's my favorite thing in this whole wide world. I miss that a lot; I miss how exciting life used to be.
Now, life is so pale and sad. I got too complacent. Don't get me wrong, I know burnout is real, and we need to take frequent breaks, but it's also unhealthy if you're on a continuous break for months. I hate not doing anything; it makes me super sad, and I don't like that. I have always found meaning in work, and I want to work; I don't want to sit my country ass down and rest forever.
Man, I'm 23 years old; I'm never going to be this young again; who the fucks knows what pains and ailments are gonna show up? I am physically able now, and I want to do shit now. I want to go out on runs, learn stuff, and build more things (I know, very Kabir from YJHD coded). As I write this sentence, I have 2 months, 1 week, 5 days, 21 hours, and 31 minutes before I leave India; I don't want to be on my bed and rot for this final stretch.
I love slow productivity and the take-it-easy approach. It works fantastically for almost everyone, but it's not for me right now. I am motivated by work, and I have to keep working to have some sense of purpose and consequently be happy. It's also a matter of responsibility as you grow older. So, yeah, 𝒻𝓊𝒸𝓀 taking it slow. I want to push myself constantly. I want to do more, work harder, and do what I can't.
In essence, I want to be toxically productive because it works for me; I need to cultivate more discipline than I currently have; I want to go crazy balls deep in this bitch (productivity). So yeah, all that happened, and I did a complete overhaul of my schedule; we start tomorrow (of course), get your predictions in, and I will report back in a week and let you know if the experiment was a W or an L.
Weekly Recs
Song: Em drops song, I share song.
Video: If I haven't mentioned it already, I'm starting to have a Twitter addiction; one of the recent things that pissed me off was the whole Rabbit R1 AI startup and YouTuber MKBHD controversy. A lot of people criticized MKBHD for making a harsh review (deserving), which is so stupid; like, they basically expected him to "go soft" because his review "can kill a revolutionary startup." The whole discourse pissed me off so much I cannot even begin to comprehend why people would side with a company backed by VCs and expect a reviewer to give a dishonest review. If your company can be killed by one YouTube review, then it probably never deserved to exist in the first place. Anyway, a lot of time passed, and I forgot about it until last week when the goat Coffeezilla dropped this banger (there's also a part 2; you have to check it out). It made me hate the R1 company and founder even more. What a sham! Props to Coffeezilla for the brilliant exposé, as always.
Links: If you find yourself worrying, here's a brilliant illustrated article that talks about the anatomy of worry and how to beat it.
https://moretothat.com/how-to-beat-worry/
Last week, I talked about my anxiety issues; I forgot to mention that one possible reason for me having less frequent anxiety attacks is meditation. I know this is boomer talk, but guys, I have been skeptical of meditation for 22 years of my life, I have despised every second of it when I was told to practice it as a kid or even when I tried it as an adult, but surprisingly, it just works now. I genuinely feel like my ability to focus on one singular thing has significantly improved a lot. So yeah, go meditate or something. (I use Headspace, shoutsout to GK for letting me use her account!)
PS: It’s Nushku’s birthday tomorrow, everyone wish her a very happy bday in your hearts and minds. Thank you very much.
PPS: If you’re a fellow INFJ, hmu, we can… not talk and chill together :)
PPPS: Here’s the email (fadaket372@jzexport.com) and password (Qwerty@123$$) if you want to use the brand new Nitro-equipped Discord account.
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Alright, that's it for this week. Take care, drink water, call your parents, text your friends. I'll see y'all again next week. Have a great week ahead, and do something for yourself that your future self will thank you for!
I hope you're happy.
Hustler,
whybhav
Mediator (INFP-T) 🌲